Sunday, January 1, 2012
Andai Ada Jodoh... cont
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Wednesday, November 30, 2011
Andai Ada Jodoh...
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Tuesday, November 29, 2011
Back to the old love...


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special blog....
ada sigek blog ya nang kamek suka baca...
http://veekyleonora.blogspot.com/
kamek nang suggest kitak org baca blog tok terutamanya yang berketurusan sea dayak...
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Wednesday, November 23, 2011
Stranger
saya mencintai seorang rakan fb yang kini teman saya.. kami berdua tidak ingin untuk menjalinkan hubungan yang serius tetapi untuk mengubati hati masing2 yang terluka (xkan sampai buat benda bodoh ok).. meski x pernah bertemu, kami berusaha untuk mengisi kekosongan di hati.. kami berjanji xkan terlalu serius tetapi jika Tuhan mengizinkan, apa salah nya...
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Saturday, January 22, 2011
You...
that night, i kept avoiding you, not to stare at your face, not listening to you... that why that night, i kept walking and trying to find a way not to stand by you... only a friend that night that know why i act strangely...
same night i texting my friend saying that i am crying that night... i said to myself be strong b'coz i'm a strong girl but that just a lie...
ingin ku lupakan kisah antara kita biarpun sementara shj memori kita, tp tak bermakna aku x menghargainya... oleh kerna itu shj memori antara kita, cukup utk simpanan ku... kau berkata, masih ada yg lebih sesuai utk mu.. kau berkata ku msh muda... tumpukan perhatian mu pada pelajaran... yeah... aku hanya berkata yg aku xingin sebarang cinta... tp itu hanya cerita... betapa lamanya aku menyimpan perasaanku kerna aku xingin kecewa, aku takut titisan airmata ku gugur kerna mu... seandai aku mencatat kisah ini sekarang, semestinya air mataku gugur lagi... aku tipu bahawa anggap sj tiada apa2 terjadi pdku... ya.. aku tahu kau dan aku... ah... xmampu ku berkata-kata kerna ku x sanggup menerima hakikat yg cinta ku x terbalas... ku cuba senyum bila berjumpa denganmu... tp ku x berani memandang wajahmu biar sesaat...
bila ku dengar berita tentang mu, aku cuba mengelak diri utk mendengarnya kerna aku ingin melupakan mu... namun aku tahu sejak keblakangan ini, kau penuh kesulitan dalam hidupmu.. nombor telefon kau ingin ku buang, tp x sanggup ku lakukan kerna aku x mau kehilangan memori ttg mu... aku ingin seperti dulu... gelak ketawa, gurau senda, susah senang kita bersama... kawanku sering bertanya kenapa aku begitu degil? selalu menipu diri ini kuat, xkan menangis, akan menerima kenyataan... ya... mg itu yg ku katakan dl, tp sekarang hampir setiap hari aku menangis... tagisan yg xdpt ku kongsikan kerna aku x ingin kau malu... inginku berjumpa denganmu tp ...Ya Tuhan... hanya kau tahu ini adalah benar dari hatiku... hambaMu ini lemah...
jika dulu ku katakan pd semua bhw bukan kau yg menjadi raja di hatiku... tp sekarang...
p/s maaf rakan ku... xmampu ku menahan lagi...
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Sunday, December 19, 2010
Love Lives Eternally by Mary Nappier
| It was getting near Christmas and I had delayed putting up a Christmas tree because this had been the first Christmas without our son. He had passed on to be with the Lord a few months before due to having leukemia. During his illness we would talk and he always told me he did not want me to be sad when he passed away and I promised him that I would try really hard not to be sad. I was doing ok with it until Christmas came near and then I fell apart because he had always enjoyed the holidays so much. He had a way of making Christmas so special to so many people and fun to. So when that first Christmas came around without him I had decided not to put up a tree at all, but the closer it got to Christmas I just felt something inside me telling to put one up. So my husband and I went and bought tree. When we began to decorate it I just fell apart because I felt so sad that our son was not there with me. I tried not to cry but I did anyway as I was getting the decorations out the box I had them stored in. I put them on the tree one by one and then I came to a very special ornament that my son gave me the year before, a glass icecyle with a gold string on it. He had it all wrapped in a pretty box when he gave it to me and said to me these words which I will never forget, "mom, I wished I could have gotton you something more but I just don't have the money this year to buy much". I gave him a kiss on the forehead and said thats ok son I understand. I opened the gift and there was the most beautiful glass tree ornament I have ever seen, not a expensive one either, but one given with love. He and I hung it on the tree that year, and that was our last Christmas together. Well when I came across that tree ornament tears fell from my eyes as I remembered my son. I hung the ornament on the tree as tears fell from my eyes and for a brief moment I felt his hand on mine as I hung it on the tree and felt his present there with me and then I began smelling the sweetest scent I have ever smelled. I cannot even describe what it smelled like but it was a sweet beautiful smell. I know in my heart that my son had visited me and helped me hang the tree ornament he had given me. I know now too that he is always with me and the love goes on for ever. That small, cheap gift he gave to me was the most precious gift in the world to me, it means more to me than all the expensive gifts in this world. It was a gift given with love and nothing in this world can ever top that. So every year since, I have made it a special moment when I hang the ornament on our tree because I know he is there to with me helping me to hang it in just the right place on the tree. |
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Saturday, November 27, 2010
HearT oF SoRroW...
SEKADAR RINTIHAN TIDAK BERGUNA,
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Sunday, November 14, 2010
Give Me Strength O God...
sejak semalam titisan airmata tak henti mengalir di pipi...
begitu sukar sekali menyimpan perasaan ini...
dahulu aku menyimpan seribu harapan..
sekarang aku berkata seribu harapan menjadi debu...
aku tak ingin lagi menyimpan harapan terhadap cinta...
cinta hanya buat aku menderita...
selama aku bercinta dengan yang lain dulu,
tiada pernah aku merasakan derita,
bahkan aku seperti tiada perasaan cinta dengan mereka...
tetapi apabila dengan si dia,
walaupun si dia tak tahu perasaan aku terhadapnya,
aku merasakan derita....
tak tahu mengapa....
aku hairan...
adakah cinta kali ini lain daripada cinta sebelum ini...
aku pun tak tahu...
setiap kali memikirkan perihal ini,
ada sahaja airmata akan mengalir....
perasaan keliru sentiasa ada...
rasa seperti ingin menjerit...
tetapi menjerit hanya melegakan seketika...
bukan selamanya....
jangan risau, mati bukan satu penyelesaian...
aku bingung..
aku celaru...
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Monday, October 18, 2010
my feeling for today
sometimes i do miss you, but sometimes i don't even remember you... but you always appears in my night dream... its a long long time not seeing you... are you still there? are you missing me? do you ever miss me? i don't know because you're not mine... myb because you're older than me or because we just not more than that..
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Sam Tsui -Don't Want An Ending
I don't wanna fall out
But we're all out of time
(Is this over?)
(Don't want an ending)
In one day
No way you'll be mine
(Is this over?)
(Don't want an ending)
Ooohhh...
My heart is running on empty
One more day and then we go
Yeah, the time goes on now
Don't ask me how
I don't know
We'll be home tomorrow
About a thousand miles too far away?
Say you won't forget and i'll be okay
At least tonight
It's just you and me and honestly
That's everything i need
I don't wanna fall out
But we're all out of time
(Is this over?)
(Don't want an ending)
In one day
No way you'll be mine
(Is this over?)
(Don't want an ending)
Tonight's the countdown
'Till the day we're not around
(Is this over?)
(Don't want an ending)
And you're gone
And we're on with our lives
(Is this over?)
(Don't want an ending)
I don't want an ending
Don't want an ending...
The days turn to hours
And it’s just a moment before they go
I’m scared to say goodbye,
‘Cause what’s after that?
I don’t know.
As the years look past us
If we lose track,
Or lose the fight,
I will search forever
To find a way back..
To tonight
Where it's just you and me and honestly
That's everything I need
I don't wanna fall out
But we're all out of time
(Is this over?)
(Don't want an ending)
In one day
No way you'll be mine
(Is this over?)
(Don't want an ending)
Tonight's the countdown
'Til the day we're not around
(Is this over?)
(Don't want an ending)
And you're gone
And we're on with our lives
(Is this over?)
(Don't want an ending)
I don't want an ending
We said "see ya later"
But I know there's no way we're
Around here again (yeah)
And every until next time
Feels like one bad punch line
And I don't want that again
I don't wanna fall out
But we're all out of time
(Is this over?)
(Don't want an ending)
In one day
No way you'll be mine
(Is this over?)
(Don't want an ending)
I don't wanna fall out
But we're all out of time
(Is this over?)
(Don't want an ending)
In one day
No way you'll be mine
(Is this over?)
(Don't want an ending)
Tonight's the countdown
'Til the day we're not around
(Is this over?)
(Don't want an ending)
And you're gone
And we're on with our lives
(Is this over?)
(Don't want an ending)
(Noo) I
Don't want an ending
(All out of time)
Don't want an ending
Don't want an ending
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Wednesday, October 13, 2010
LoVe HearT CinTa
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Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Simple Life but Always Sweet....
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Saturday, July 10, 2010
. . . : : Long Time : : . . .
Hye everyone... its been a long time since my last post...
sebenarnya aku xtau nak post ape..
but its been so many happy and sad moment between my last post until now..
. . . : : SAD MOMENTS : : . . .
dalam cinta, ada datang dan ada pergi..
begitu juga dengan perasaan manusia...
aku bertemu dengan seseorang...
pada mulanya, mesti kita rasa begitu rapat sebagai kawan
tetapi perasaan itu hanya sementara..
ketika wujudnya perasaan kasih dan sayang itu di dalam perasaan saya,
si dia pula telah pergi menjauh mengejar masa depan...
sejak itu, hidup dirundung kesunyian..
tetapi x mengapa, kita masih berkawan..
cukup la sekadar berkawan...
. . . : : HAPPY MOMENT : : . . .
of course happu moment will come out when there's come HOLIDAY.
cuti semester selama sebulan hanya dapat saya rasai selama 3 minggu..
beberapa hari selepas final exam,
Black Phantom UiTMKS Drumline telah berangkat ke UiTM Kelantan
bagi menyertai Pertandingan Percussion antara UiTM...
setelah berlatih siang dan malam, dengan hati yang gementar, kami pun berangkat...
perjalanan yang begitu jauh dari LCCT ke UiTM Kelantan
dengan hanya menggunakan bas yang kecik dan dipenuhi dengan peralatan2 yang tidak kurang besarnya..
keadaan bas yang kecik amat menghiburkan dengan celoteh2 & ragam2 penumpang (B.P)
setelah perjalanan yang mengambil masa hampir 10 jam itu, akhirnya selesai
apabila kami disambut baik oleh orang Kelate...
keesokkannye...
kesemua pasukan mengadakan latihan dengan pasukan kontijen masing2..
begitu juga kami...
pada hari yg sama, rehearsal dijalankan dalam keadaan cuaca yang panas dan jerebu...
masa raptai, rasa cam tentera jer... asyik kena jerit.
tp xpe... biasa suda tyme latihan... huahuahua
pd mlm itu pula, majlis makan malam ala melayu.. rasanya
sebab pki bj batik, bj lawa, tp mkn pki tangan.. aik basuh tangan pun xda... pelik ar...
mcm x ikut protokol jer..
lepas abis mkn, disusuli dengan cabutan nombor giliran pula..
kitorang dapat nombor 6... huh middle number but still nervous tau...
lepas tue, kitorang belatih lagi... disebabkan kami lambat dan x dpt tmpt strategik utk membuat latihan,
coach kitorang marah dan sesak kami berabisan kakya treking... maksudnya men musik sambil treking(mcm jungle treking cuma treking musik kat jalan berbukit)... terseksa tp best gila... org terpegun dengan kontijen sarawak tau..
bukan ape, last year sarawak dpt laz place, tp sarawak impore oledi..
i'm proud of it..
esoknya, pelu bgn awal utk turun ke tmpt pertandingan, pki uniform...
tp giliran mekorg lps tgh hari, perbarisan pembukaan gk...
tgh tunggu giliran, hati bertambah gementar tgk pesembahan org len... takut berambis..
dh tiba giliran, muka neves giler tp lagak cam x neves... hehe... suma org bersorak utk sarawak...
dorg bangga ke sindir? i pun xtau...
semua terpegun tgk pesembahan sarawak, (x la best sgt..)
then tiba waktu penutupan dan penyamapaian..
1st place UiTM Shah Alam..
sarawak? not even top 5 but we knew that we are not the lowez..
then encik rasley(btlker ejaan tok) g meeting...
pas nya meetinga ya, nya pdh la, sarawak ......
no. 6 out of 10.... really? mekorg x caya...
but its okay sbb bkn laz... next year try gik.. top 3 pun ckp la...
esoknye, mek org packing blk then stay in shah alam...
kat kampus shah alam, gara2 blk lewat dari kL,
mekorg tgh mlm boleh tersesat dalam kampus nak blk g hostel,
sesat 1jam lbh... huh!! gila... pkl 2 pagi bru smpi hostel... huahuahuahua
then esoknye lagi mekorg pun blk g KUCHING...
....bersambung....
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Sunday, December 13, 2009
christmas joke_christmas flight
it was a few days before Christmas. The trip went reasonably well, and he was ready to go back home. The airport on the other end had turned a tacky red and green, and loudspeakers blared annoying elevator renditions of cherished Christmas carols.
Being someone who took Christmas very seriously, and being slightly tired, he was not in a particularly good mood. (Almost a scrooge) Going to check in his luggage (which, for some reason, had become one suitcase with entirely new clothes), he saw hanging mistletoe. Not real mistletoe, but very cheap plastic with red paint on some of the rounder parts and green paint on some of the flatter and pointer parts, that could be taken for mistletoe only in a very Picasso sort of way.
With a considerable degree of irritation and nowhere else to vent it, he said to the attendant, "Even if we were married, I would not want to kiss you under such a ghastly mockery of mistletoe."
"Sir, look more closely at where the mistletoe is."
"Ok, I see that it's above the luggage scale which is the place you'd have to step forward for a kiss."
"That's not why it's there."
"Ok, I give up. Why is it there?"
"It's there so you can kiss your luggage good-bye."
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christmas joke_santa's a woman
i think Santa Claus is a woman....I hate to be the one to defy a sacred myth, but I believe he's a she. Think about it. Christmas is a big, organized, warm, fuzzy, nurturing social deal, and I have a tough time believing a guy could possibly pull it all off!
For starters, the vast majority of men don't even think about selecting gifts until Christmas Eve. Once at the mall, they always seem surprised to find only Ronco products, socket wrench sets, and mood rings left on the shelves. On this count alone, I'm convinced Santa is a woman.
Surely, if he were a man, everyone in the universe would wake up Christmas morning to find a rotating musical Chia Pet under the tree, still in the bag.
Another problem for a he-Santa would be getting there. First of all, there would be no reindeer because they would all be dead, gutted and strapped to the rear bumper of the sleigh amid wide-eyed, desperate claims that buck season had been extended. Blitzen's rack would already be on the way to the taxidermist.
Even if the male Santa DID have reindeer, he'd still have transportation problems because he would inevitably get lost up there in the snow and clouds and then refuse to stop and ask for directions.
Other reasons why Santa can't possibly be a man:
- Men can't pack a bag.
- Men would rather be dead than caught wearing red velvet.
- Men don't answer their mail.
- Men would refuse to allow their physique to be described even in jest as anything remotely resembling a "bowlful of jelly."
- Men aren't interested in stockings unless somebody's wearing them.
- Having to do the Ho Ho Ho thing would seriously inhibit their ability to pick up women.
- Finally, being responsible for Christmas would require a commitment.
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christmas joke_gift for men
buying gifts for men is not nearly as complicated as it is for women. Follow these rules and you should have no problems.
Rule #1:
When in doubt - buy him a cordless drill. It does not matter if he already has one. I have a friend who owns 17 and he has yet to complain. As a man, you can never have too many cordless drills. No one knows why.
Rule #2:
If you cannot afford a cordless drill, buy him anything with the word ratchet or socket in it. Men love saying those two words. "Hey George, can I borrow your ratchet?" "OK. By-the-way, are you through with my 3/8-inch socket yet?" Again, no one knows why.
Rule #3:
If you are really, really broke, buy him anything for his car, a 99 cent ice scraper, a small bottle of deicer or something to hang from his rear view mirror. Men love gifts for their cars. No one knows why.
Rule #4:
Never buy men bathrobes. Once I was told that if God had wanted men to wear bathrobes, he wouldn't have invented Jockey shorts.
Rule #5:
You can buy men new remote controls to replace the ones they have worn out. If you have a lot of money buy your man a big-screen TV with the little picture in the corner. Watch him go wild as he flips, and flips, and flips.
Rule #6:
Do not buy any man industrial-sized canisters of after-shave or deodorant. I'm told they do not stink - they are earthy.
Rule #7:
Buy men label makers. Almost as good as cordless drills. Within a couple of weeks there will be labels absolutely everywhere. "Socks. Shorts. Cups. saucers. Door. Lock. Sink." You get the idea. No one knows why. (ABSOLUTELY TRUE!!)
Rule #8:
Never buy a man anything that says "some assembly required" on the box. It will ruin his Special Day and he will always have parts left over. No one knows why.
Rule #9:
Good places to shop for men include Northwest Iron Works, Parr Lumber, Home Depot, John Deere, Valley RV Center, and Les Schwab Tire. (NAPA Auto Parts and Sears Clearance Centers are also excellent men's stores.) It doesn't matter if he doesn't know what it is. ("From NAPA Auto, eh? Must be something I need. Hey! Isn't this a starter for a '68 Ford Fairlane? Wow! thanks.")
Rule #10:
Men enjoy danger. That's why they never cook - but they will barbecue. (No one knows why) Get him a monster barbecue with a 100-pound propane tank. Tell him the gas line leaks. "Oh the thrill! The challenge! Who wants a hamburger?"
Rule #11:
Tickets to a Cowboys game are a smart gift. However, he will not appreciate tickets to "A Retrospective of 19th Century Quilts." Everyone knows why.
Rule #12:
Men love chain saws. Never, ever, buy a man you love a chain saw. If you don't know why - please refer to Rule #7 and what happens when he gets a label maker.
Rule #13:
It's hard to beat a really good wheelbarrow or an aluminum extension ladder. Never buy a real man a stepladder. It must be an extension ladder. No one knows why.
Rule #14:
Rope. Men love rope. It takes us back to our cowboy origins, or at least The Boy Scouts. Nothing says love like a hundred feet of 3/8" manila rope. No one knows why.
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christmas joke_a perfect woman
once upon a time, a perfect man and a perfect woman met. After a perfect courtship, they had a perfect wedding. Their life was, of course "perfect."
One snowy, stormy Christmas Eve, this perfect couple was driving their perfect car (a SUV) along a winding road, when they noticed someone at the side of the road in distress. Being the perfect couple they stopped to help.
There stood Santa Claus with a huge bundle of toys. Not wanting to disappoint any children on the eve of Christmas, the perfect couple loaded Santa and his toys into their vehicle. Soon they were driving along delivering the toys.
Unfortunately, the driving conditions deteriorated and the perfect couple and Santa Claus had an accident. Only one of them survived the accident.
Who was the survivor?
The perfect woman survived. She's the only one who really existed in the first place. Everyone knows there is no Santa Claus and there is no such thing as a perfect man.
So, if there is no perfect man and no Santa Claus, the perfect woman must have been driving. This explains why there was an accident.
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